6.12.2024

I feel overly responsible, I think it's because I'm so protective of myself, I don't want to have to depend on anyone. But a part of me is feeling a sense of lacking in adventure, and having to grow up pretty quick as a young girl. Like lately, I think a lot about the emotional weight I was carrying in high school. Mom just being sad, all of our siblings going through some shit, and I kinda just felt like I was there, being the keeper of it all, which has now led into my adult life of trying to hold all this shit together. I think the universe is highlighting that no one right now is my responsibility aside from me, and wanting to be a little kid and just play, so I'm trying to find that sense of adventure and freedom even more, while also being responsible and making money. Idk. Trying to be an adult and let myself be a kid all at once.